God has forgotten to write my love story

Hi friends,

Lately, I’ve been feeling like God has forgotten to write my love story. I see people, Christians and non alike testifying about how God perfectly wrote their love story and just how happy they are and I am left feeling like, WHAT ABOUT ME?

I’m waiting patiently. I’m avoiding unnecessary and temporary pleasures, I’m working on my RED FLAGS (read more about that HERE) yet, I still feel lonely and sometimes really alone. Am I the only one who feel this way? Like you’ve prayed or still praying, you haven’t settled, your heart is open but nothing is happening?

I start asking myself What is wrong with me? Is God busy with everyone else love story? What about mine, has He forgotten to write my love story? Not only do I start questioning myself and pointing out all my flaws, I throw myself a huge self-pity party and invite fear, despair, hopelessness, and eventually the guest honor CONTROL over my own life. After I cry, I wipe my tears and tell God, if you WON’T, because I know He CAN, but if He WON’T sort out my love life then I’m going to take that task away from Him. He can handle everything else but that. Let me quickly tell you that, it NEVER ends well! hence why I am still single.

So listen friends, the response to the question if God has forgotten to write your love story is a big, I DON’T KNOW.  What I do know is that, God doesn’t forget. He will never forget us. Here is another truth, one I struggle to believe sometimes, God cares deeply about our desires. 

Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart. – Psalm 37:4

You can rest in that.

It might feel like God is not writing our love story because it doesn’t look like how we expected it to look like. For some of us, we may not know who we want exactly but we kind of have a time we’d like for our love story to begin, and how it should play out. We set ourselves up for disappointment when we do that. That isn’t completely trusting God with our love life.

But here is an idea

What if God is writing a much better and a much bigger love story than we could even expect. And maybe that is why it might be taking a little bit more time, MAYBE He is really shaping us for that epic love story we are going to be staring in.

So for the days where you feel like you handed the pen to God to write your love story and He isn’t. Just keep trusting and keep having faith and know that He is still writing it and has not forgotten any of us.

Just keep working on you and keep asking God to work on your heart. And keep waiting faithfully.

God is faithful!

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Taking Stock: April 2018

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Making : the days count. jk. I am not making anything at the moment. I wish I was making the days count, but listen when my money comes, I WILL be MAKING the days count. Until then…

Cooking : I made this really bomb chicken. It was wow!!so good. Need I brag more

Drinking : water at the moment, but I did have this margarita.

Reading:  Counterfeit God by Tim Keller and This is Me Letting You Go by Heidi Priebe. Just finished Still Me by Jojo Moyes, read the my book review HERE.

Wanting: MONEY! I need money. (same as the previous month)

Looking: for a job. (same as the previous month)

Deciding: Nothing at the moment. What?

Wishing: On a star?

Enjoying: OMG! this peace from God.

Waiting: For… it is a secret. it is like 3 BIG things.

Liking: No boys, men, uncles, brothers, people’s ugly sons. LOL etc…solidly single!! (same!! EVEN MORE!! WOW but yet I am still looking. Contradicting much?!)

Wondering: when is my man who is going to delight in me come? I’m praying about it. Maybe I should write a post about what I looking for in a man so you all can help a sister out? (same as January, February, March and very contradicting to what I wrote above.) MY NEXT POST?

Loving: Jesus the LIVING Christ. THE living Christ. THE I AM…

Listening: Housefires, “Yes and Amen” and I just really got into Jhene Aiko, she is fire!

Considering: Going to the gym or not. Or not!

Buying: nothing at the moment. Broke us af!! Still the same, but change issa coming and its going to be the realest. I’m going to be hauling the things I buy. hahaha. I’m pushing it

Watching: One Tree Hill for the third time. Because why not?

Hoping: in Christ ALONE!! All the time!! EVERYDAY

Cringing: at nothing really

Needing: money! haha. Mah-NEY!!

Questioning: NOT the goodness of God!!

Smelling: nail polish

Wearing: Day 3 clothes. But I’ve showered oh

Noticing: nothing

Thinking: nothing really. My brain is on vacation

Feeling: Loved. Loved by my sweet Jesus

Celebrating: nothing really

Pretending: none here

Embracing: this hope!

Do your own Taking Stock post and pinback? I’d like to see what you have been up to.

Life Lately + Word of the Year

Hi friends,

Lets play catch up. Lets start with my word of the year. How is it going? Am I still living it? Did I forsake it? word of the year

I chose the word HOPE as my word of the year for 2018! I chose it because last year or the last few years, I was living in this darkness that was hopelessness and as I was praying about 2018, I felt that God wanted to deliver me from that. You can read more about it HERE.

I am living out this word by making BOLD decisions about my life. Being uncomfortable and really seeking joy. I am living out a hopeful life by choosing to depend on God for things that seem unattainable. I spend hours in prayer declaring over every dry bone and dead thing in my life to come alive. I am living out a hopeful life by not taking short cuts and settling for temporary pleasures. I am living a hopeful life by waiting on God.

Don’t get me wrong, it has been difficult because being hopeful doesn’t naturally come to me. But I am so glad my hope isn’t in my feelings or my positive thoughts but it is in Christ alone. He alone gives me hope. Nothing else. So yes there are days where I’ve cried myself to sleep, where I have slipped into the place of hopelessness and despair but God always shows up to comfort me and give me hope.

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Life has been STRESSFUL, need I say I more? I feel the weight of stress on every level, but God dey! you know!

I’ve also been having a lot of OKAY days. Like things are just okay. I am developing a community and it is exciting.

I am also spending time with myself. I found this cafe I am in love with. cafe i write what i like blogVietnamese coffee

Life lately has been figuring out more of who I am and most importantly what I like and want. I grew up surrounded by family and so I never truly made decisions for myself by myself. Now that I am no longer living at home. What I eat, when I cook, what I do with my time is solely on me. I don’t have to consider anyone. It’s freeing but a tad uncomfortable.

I am also trying this thing I learned from the girls at CLEARTRANSPARANCY (click the link, you won’t regret it) blog. It’s called confessions. Basically declaring the truth of what God says about us out loud and also into our heart. It is such a good idea! I think sometimes the enemy needs to hear the truth about us too. he needs to know that WE KNOW what God has said about us. Like we aren’t some clueless mindless minions walking around in this world unaware of his tricks and God’s plans. Sometimes we need to let the enemy know we are on to his games and we really DON’t PLAY THAT!

So here are my confessions or declarations for this week…

  • God has not given me the spirit of fear

  • I am beautiful on the inside and outside

  • My circumstances cannot and will not destroy me

  • Jesus is enough

  • I am a hopeful person

  • It is well

Would you all like for me to share my weekly confessions here with you guys? What is something you are speaking over your life this week?