Life lately: December 2017

What? It is December already? I am not complaining at all. I want 2017 to be over already. I thought 2015 and 2016 were tough but boy was I wrong. haha

The last time I wrote one of these was towards the end of October, so I guess I’m going to chat about life since then.

I’ve been pretty active on this blog but not as much as I wanted to be. I still have many drafts that need to be completed and posted and many ideas that I want to share. I’ve been trying to incorporate other things on this blog but I do not know how people will receive it so I’ve stopped myself. But I’m thinking I’m going to try anyways. I feel like my blog is really scattered and I want it to be really focused so I hope to figure it out before the New Year begins. Leave me feed back? I also need to change my about me and contact section.

Lately, I’ve tasted the bitterness (I use the word bitter a lot here, I’m sorry, I have no other words) of lost opportunities. I’ve always been one of those people that didn’t do this or didn’t do that and I wasn’t going to bend for any reason. But lately, my lack of flexibility have really bit me in the bum and it really sucks. It hurts. I’ve cried. I just really want tell you all to be really open in this life. I’m learning that myself. Seriously, date that guy or girl, move, take that job, go to that show, etc… Really. I’ve missed out on a specific opportunity twice and now its too late, and it my bitter pill to swallow, and it is not going down easy at all. But I’ve learned my lesson.

Speaking of taking chances. I have this big thing I am doing soon and I am scared. But more on that later.

I found out that my health isn’t that great and I have work to do. This is why I hate hospitals because they always give you bad news. haha.

I’ve also been reading about the Exodus of the Israelites. They were so funny. But such a reflection of who we are as believers these days. One day we are all God is good and then 5 minutes later, we complain about not seeing his goodness. I don’t know, but read Exodus in the Bible even if you aren’t a Christian, it is a really good story.

Life lately is me healing or God healing me and just putting all the broken pieces together. I am trusting Him for full and complete healing and I am hopeful it is going to come.

The greatest thing that has happened lately is, I became an aunt again!! With my sister’s permission, I will share a picture soon.

I have a new instagram. FOLLOW

How has life been lately?

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may joy meet you in the morning

IMG_1982 (2)Happy New Month

early in the morning, I will celebrate the light, when I stumble in the darkness, I will call Your name by night

In my last post I wrote about how tough the last few weeks have been, you can read about it HERE. Usually, I leave it all here and don’t come back to tell about my okay days, and the mornings when joy met me by the time my feet touched the floor.

God has been showing up

But in unexpected ways.

At my lowest, sometime last week, I kept repeating to myself, ” I have no one, I absolutely have no one.” but I know this is a lie. There was this battle in my heart, where I wanted to keep saying “I have no one” but I felt in my heart that i really didn’t believe it and it was the enemy willing me to say it enough so I would believe it.

you can have all this world, give me Jesus

My hearts desire

Everything isn’t all of sudden perfect, God didn’t perform some magic trick and all of sudden my life was golden. God didn’t make the pain go away. But what God did was remove the hopelessness from my heart and replace it with peace. God gave me strength to wake-up and accomplish the tasks before me with a clear mind, I still cried when I laid down, but I got shit done. God gave me a song and he softened my heart and I was able to let go of my pride.

I don’t know how tomorrow is going to look like but today, I am okay. I am okay with the mess and the tears. I am okay with the sadness, and hopeful that it will pass. I am okay with the fact that tomorrow might be a struggle but thankful that God is already there waiting to meet me and hold me.

God is good. I am thankful that I know this truth…

You have no rival, You have no equal, now and forever God you reign. Yours is the kingdom. Yours is the glory. Yours is the name above all names.

I just pray peace over anyone who stumbles on this post. I pray for peace and grace in whatever situation you’re going through. I pray the Lord will give you rest, and that you find joy in the morning.

 

 

5 Ways to Get Yourself Out of a Funk

aqua safari GhanaSome of you may know know that the last 2 years have been tough for your girl, and if you don’t know, it’s written all over this blog. So it may not surprise you that I’ve HAD to come with ways to get through these rough times. I’ve HAD to y’all.

I think we will all agree that there is nothing tougher than going through hard times when hope seems far away. But let me tell you something that I think is even tougher. Picking yourself up out of the funk. Literally bending down with your aching back, tired arms, bruised hands, holding on and DRAGGING yourself back up. THAT is hard. It’s less painful and much easier to drown in your sorrows. Today, I will be sharing my tips on how to get through the pain and pick yourself up. Definitely easier said than done but it works.

  • Having quiet time

For me, the most effective way to pick myself up from the dump is some alone time. My alone time consists of sleeping, reading and praying and it HAS to happen in a clean space. I just use this time to sit with my thoughts about the situation that has left me in this state and really listen… I think when you are in pain and you have people around you, in their attempt to console you, plenty advice is dispelled and I just think is is hard to take it all in. But I think praying or reading your bible and sitting in silence allows you to clear your mind. Also a really good book or even a bad one can help you clear your head. I’m also all about journaling, its one of my favorite outlets.

  • Taking long aimless walks

I don’t think there is anything that can remind you of how small you are like nature. When I go on my walks and I see everything and everyone around me, I am reminded of how I play a very small role in this big big world. Not trying to invalidate anyone’s problems but I think sometime the world outside ourselves let us know of how small our our problems really are.   img_9808

  • Working out

I do not like working out. In fact it is something I can say I hate. But it makes me feel so light, emotionally. When I am struggling with feeling good, working out has a way of relieving me of the pain or stress I am feeling. I know there is a scientific word for it but I can’t be bothered right now. But seriously, I think doing some kind of exercise allows you to release the tension and emotions from your body. Also, you sleep really well when you are sore.

  • Hanging out with people

This year, I’ve learned the importance of hanging out with people, friends. Last year, I joined a small group- a small community of Christians who meet to talk about GOd and life- but I never really did anything with them. I would go to the bible studies alright but I wouldn’t partake in any of the activities held outside of bible studies. In contrast, this year, I have been involved and really made a decision to go out with my small group and get to know some of the people I pray with or hang with. it has been such an escape for me and I am absolutely glad that I’ve been making the decision to go out more.

  • Taking extra time to get ready

I’m my most put together, when I don’t really feel “put together” on the inside. I think for me, the effort it takes to put on make up, wear clothes that require ironing and maybe some heels, make me feel like not everything is lost. And they say if you look good, you feel good, or something like that.

What do you do to get out of the funk? I could use it