may joy meet you in the morning

IMG_1982 (2)Happy New Month

early in the morning, I will celebrate the light, when I stumble in the darkness, I will call Your name by night

In my last post I wrote about how tough the last few weeks have been, you can read about it HERE. Usually, I leave it all here and don’t come back to tell about my okay days, and the mornings when joy met me by the time my feet touched the floor.

God has been showing up

But in unexpected ways.

At my lowest, sometime last week, I kept repeating to myself, ” I have no one, I absolutely have no one.” but I know this is a lie. There was this battle in my heart, where I wanted to keep saying “I have no one” but I felt in my heart that i really didn’t believe it and it was the enemy willing me to say it enough so I would believe it.

you can have all this world, give me Jesus

My hearts desire

Everything isn’t all of sudden perfect, God didn’t perform some magic trick and all of sudden my life was golden. God didn’t make the pain go away. But what God did was remove the hopelessness from my heart and replace it with peace. God gave me strength to wake-up and accomplish the tasks before me with a clear mind, I still cried when I laid down, but I got shit done. God gave me a song and he softened my heart and I was able to let go of my pride.

I don’t know how tomorrow is going to look like but today, I am okay. I am okay with the mess and the tears. I am okay with the sadness, and hopeful that it will pass. I am okay with the fact that tomorrow might be a struggle but thankful that God is already there waiting to meet me and hold me.

God is good. I am thankful that I know this truth…

You have no rival, You have no equal, now and forever God you reign. Yours is the kingdom. Yours is the glory. Yours is the name above all names.

I just pray peace over anyone who stumbles on this post. I pray for peace and grace in whatever situation you’re going through. I pray the Lord will give you rest, and that you find joy in the morning.

 

 

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Monthly roundup: May 2016

OMG we are almost half way through the year? Can you believe it? I cannot, I heard the older you get the quicker the days go by. I completely agree.

what I learned in May

  • I learned that God always provides!
  • God doesn’t waste anything. This means that all of our experiences, our efforts, our joy, sadness, jobs, people we’ve met, etc… nothing is wasted. It very much feel like that sometimes but I learned that God will use whatever to bring us closer to Him, if that is the request we’ve made. Even when we’ve made bad decisions and have to face the consequences, God will take our bad decision and turn it into something worth while.
  • I’ve learned the importance of having a positive outlook on life.
  • I learned that I am not doing life alone

Blogs

  • Jessica from Simplestylesbyjes have been offering some awesome styling tips and tricks for naturals with afros or dreads alike over at her blog which I am so appreciative off. One of my favorite posts will definitely have to be her post called Simply colorful, she shared an easy tip on how “color” natural hair without damaging the hair.
  • Another blog I have been loving is Josephina’s blog. She is writing this intense story called Family beyond blood. The story is so good I can’t take it. Every installment of the story she posts, the comment section goes crazy with different opinions and people sharing their true feelings on a story that is fiction! Her writing is unbelievable, so much talent.

What I’v been listening to

  • I’ve just got into listening to podcasts, my favorite is the elevation church podcast. Its so good
  • I’ve been obsessed with Bethel music song “Ever be,” sung by Kalley Heilignthal.
  • I’ve been listening to Drake’s “one dance” as well. I really like it. I can fake a workout out of it.

watching

  • I finished watching Felicity. Its a 90’s show, but I’m into that now.
  • I also began watching a show called “Made in heaven.” Its the black version of ABC’s the bachelor.

lets catch up on my goals now…

  1. Lose the 5lbs I’ve been meaning to lose for the last 3 months or so…but I can’t stop eating.
    lol this didn’t happen. I may have actually gained weight
  2. Read 4 books
    this didn’t happen wither. I read one book
  3. Write at least 15 blog posts
    -this didn’t happen either, BUT I did write about 11 posts! more than I usually do
  4. Secure a full time job. I have no control over that than to keep applying but hey!
    – I’m not sure if this has happened yet or not. stat tuned
  5. Go somewhere in Columbus I have not been before or some type of event and take pictures!!
    didn’t happen
  6. Bible journal at least 5 times this month
    -this didn’t happen either. Am i even able to make commitments. This will just be a repeat lit for June.
  7. At the end of the month write about 3 ways I chose joy
    When I found out I didn’t get a particular job that I wanted, I only cried for an hour and proceeded to apply for so many more.
    -I was in a financial bind a few weeks ago, my initial reaction was, God always provide and i just kept repeating it to myself, my anxiety was eased and I could think clearer and figure out another way.
    – I chose joy by reaching out to someone when I was having credit issues 

Welp thats all!! How was YOUR May?

 

“no fear can hinder now, the promises You’ve made…”

it is wellhello,

I haven’t written here in a long while, hope you are doing just fine. As some of you may know I was on holidays in Ghana, and for those who don’t know, that will mean you are just now reading my blog. Thanks for stopping by. I’ve been back in the States for less than a week now and I’ve just been resting and just regrouping.

I haven’t really felt like doing much because I am missing Ghana so much and MA. I’m also struggling with the fact that I’ve moved back home, which as unmarried Ghanaian woman it isn’t a big deal at all, actually, I’m expected to live at home till I get married and my husband come carry me away to his home. But I am struggling with it because while I was schooling for all these years I had my own place, granted I had roommates, I still felt as though I was on my own and I miss that, terribly. My parents aren’t giving me a hard time, like I said, I am expected to live at home till marriage, and if I’m honest, they are doing me a favor by letting me live here rent free, but I am not happy about the situation because I feel like I’m that high school girl again who just stayed permanently in her room and just cried. But I’m not that girl anymore, I just feel that way.

Being back in the States have been a bit difficult for me because, I am a graduate with no job! Having no source of income is proving very painful for me, it has me feeling really down and almost useless. I know very well that, my usefulness or worth doesn’t come from having a job, but again, that is how I feel. Within the past 5 days or so, I’ve applied for many jobs, received some “we regret to tell you, you do not meet our requirements” email messages, but not one interview have I been called about and IT SUCKS!!

I keep hearing “have faith” and “it’s been less than week since you started searching” and “you will find a job,” etc… I am grateful for the positivity round me, but I have found that their encouragement only last for about an hour then I’m back to feeling down again.

I didn’t want to write this post let alone share it because I was afraid that people will question my faith in God or think I am some kind of liar because, I talk about God and how wonderful God is and how God is for us, etc… but here I am not trusting that I will find a job and everything will fall in place. However, I felt the need to share so that people may see that Christians do struggle with their faith too. That Christians are human beings who feel every kind of emotion, including fear.

I will still believe in God’s goodness even if I don’t find a job, but I am allowed to feel sad about it. One thing MA has been pressing on me is “IT IS WELL,” he allows me to complain and share in my stress but always reminds me that “it is well.”

Anyways, following today, I will be sharing the rest of my pictures from my trip to Ghana and really focusing on bringing you a well-rounded blog. I hope to come up with a posting schedule soon.

have a good rest of the week!

much love, SAA!