Life lately: December 2017

What? It is December already? I am not complaining at all. I want 2017 to be over already. I thought 2015 and 2016 were tough but boy was I wrong. haha

The last time I wrote one of these was towards the end of October, so I guess I’m going to chat about life since then.

I’ve been pretty active on this blog but not as much as I wanted to be. I still have many drafts that need to be completed and posted and many ideas that I want to share. I’ve been trying to incorporate other things on this blog but I do not know how people will receive it so I’ve stopped myself. But I’m thinking I’m going to try anyways. I feel like my blog is really scattered and I want it to be really focused so I hope to figure it out before the New Year begins. Leave me feed back? I also need to change my about me and contact section.

Lately, I’ve tasted the bitterness (I use the word bitter a lot here, I’m sorry, I have no other words) of lost opportunities. I’ve always been one of those people that didn’t do this or didn’t do that and I wasn’t going to bend for any reason. But lately, my lack of flexibility have really bit me in the bum and it really sucks. It hurts. I’ve cried. I just really want tell you all to be really open in this life. I’m learning that myself. Seriously, date that guy or girl, move, take that job, go to that show, etc… Really. I’ve missed out on a specific opportunity twice and now its too late, and it my bitter pill to swallow, and it is not going down easy at all. But I’ve learned my lesson.

Speaking of taking chances. I have this big thing I am doing soon and I am scared. But more on that later.

I found out that my health isn’t that great and I have work to do. This is why I hate hospitals because they always give you bad news. haha.

I’ve also been reading about the Exodus of the Israelites. They were so funny. But such a reflection of who we are as believers these days. One day we are all God is good and then 5 minutes later, we complain about not seeing his goodness. I don’t know, but read Exodus in the Bible even if you aren’t a Christian, it is a really good story.

Life lately is me healing or God healing me and just putting all the broken pieces together. I am trusting Him for full and complete healing and I am hopeful it is going to come.

The greatest thing that has happened lately is, I became an aunt again!! With my sister’s permission, I will share a picture soon.

I have a new instagram. FOLLOW

How has life been lately?


On Libya

disclaimer: this is response is based on my very limited knowledge about Libya, the slavery crisis, Gaddafi, and the lack of a stable government in Libya. I haven’t studied this topic I’m just sharing my opinion.

This isn’t new

There have been talks about Libyans mistreating black Africans for a while now. I first heard about this in Ghana years ago. People were complaining that when they would travel from Ghana to Libya, they ended up being slaves or prostitutes. Most of these people got to Libya with an agent- a middle (wo)man who will promise them a job but after landing there, they find themselves as slaves or prostitutes. This has been happening for a while, I only say this venture into my next point…

The death of Gaddafi wasn’t the starting point

I am not sure where this thought process started, but in the last few days, I’ve heard so many people criticizing the West and especially Obama for causing this. The thought is that, because they went after Gaddafi and killed him, Libyans have taken the liberty to commit these atrocities. I don’t know about you, and I don’t mean to be insulting, but how does that make sense. This mistreatment of black west Africans in Libya was happening under Gaddafi’s nose. Just wanted to put that out there so you can form your conversations about this topic well. Thank me later.

The West has no power over a country without a stable government and why…

Powerful countries do not get involve in crises because of humanitarian reasons. I hate to sound cynical but the fact is, if a country like the USA gets involve with a developing country, it has an agenda and it is usually economical. I guess where I am going with this is, Libya has no stable government presently meaning there are several rebel groups feigning for power. So, lets say the UN or other powerful countries get involved, how would they know who to align with? the answer is they will align with a rebel group that they control. We’ve seen this happen so many times, who is to say it wont happen again.

The plea for the US and UK to get involved on social media

Social media many times get it so wrong. The US and UK cannot touch a rebel group, legally, and I’ll tell you why. Most of the time, these powerful countries have power to make change in developing countries only where there is a stable government in place and they enforce this change by imposing sanctions on the country. Without a stable government, who are you going to impose these sanctions on? a rebel group? come on.

The solution

I have a suggestion but lets get back to the fact that I know nothing, but I think one way to get these slaves out of slavery is their various countries making agreements or forcefully getting them back. I’m not sure how they can do it forcefully and I’m not really into violence, so… I don’t how it will look like. But I think Ghana should go for its people, Nigeria too, Gambia, etc… We as Africans need to take control over this situation.

thats all. This is Africa

update: Ghana has reported that many people have been rescued already

any thoughts

True life: What anxiety looks like

It feels like a huge lump in your throat daring you to release it in tears. But you know it’s a bad idea so you don’t and let the lump sit there hoping by some miracle it will shrink, maybe just a little.

It’s like knowing that when you release the first tear drop, they will flow uncontrollably and swallow you whole.

It’s like different levels of darkness; when you think, this is as dark as it can get but then it gets darker.

It’s the feeling that your head will definitely explode if another thought comes in your head. It’s thoughts of being no more. Mistakes. Being no more. Betrayal, not from people but the world, God, if there is one! It’s thoughts of being no more. Regret.

Being no more and the pain you will feel no more.

It’s thinking that, this time, your heart will indeed stop beating because it can’t take the pain and fear anymore.

It’s the feeling of negligence because you didn’t look out for your heart. You didn’t protect it. You didn’t guard it.

It feels like aches. All over your body. Lack of oxygen. It feels like lung failure.

It feels like, this time, you will actually lose your mind. You will absolutely lose it and you won’t come back.

It’s begging and crying to whomever will listen to bare this pain or at least ease it. It feels like no one understands you

It’s the need for sleep. For days.

It feels like your best days are behind you and there is no future. And IF there is one, it is going to be dark and gloomy.

It feels like infinite failures.