Life Lately + Word of the Year

Hi friends,

Lets play catch up. Lets start with my word of the year. How is it going? Am I still living it? Did I forsake it? word of the year

I chose the word HOPE as my word of the year for 2018! I chose it because last year or the last few years, I was living in this darkness that was hopelessness and as I was praying about 2018, I felt that God wanted to deliver me from that. You can read more about it HERE.

I am living out this word by making BOLD decisions about my life. Being uncomfortable and really seeking joy. I am living out a hopeful life by choosing to depend on God for things that seem unattainable. I spend hours in prayer declaring over every dry bone and dead thing in my life to come alive. I am living out a hopeful life by not taking short cuts and settling for temporary pleasures. I am living a hopeful life by waiting on God.

Don’t get me wrong, it has been difficult because being hopeful doesn’t naturally come to me. But I am so glad my hope isn’t in my feelings or my positive thoughts but it is in Christ alone. He alone gives me hope. Nothing else. So yes there are days where I’ve cried myself to sleep, where I have slipped into the place of hopelessness and despair but God always shows up to comfort me and give me hope.

Life Lately

Life has been STRESSFUL, need I say I more? I feel the weight of stress on every level, but God dey! you know!

I’ve also been having a lot of OKAY days. Like things are just okay. I am developing a community and it is exciting.

I am also spending time with myself. I found this cafe I am in love with. cafe i write what i like blogVietnamese coffee

Life lately has been figuring out more of who I am and most importantly what I like and want. I grew up surrounded by family and so I never truly made decisions for myself by myself. Now that I am no longer living at home. What I eat, when I cook, what I do with my time is solely on me. I don’t have to consider anyone. It’s freeing but a tad uncomfortable.

I am also trying this thing I learned from the girls at CLEARTRANSPARANCY (click the link, you won’t regret it) blog. It’s called confessions. Basically declaring the truth of what God says about us out loud and also into our heart. It is such a good idea! I think sometimes the enemy needs to hear the truth about us too. he needs to know that WE KNOW what God has said about us. Like we aren’t some clueless mindless minions walking around in this world unaware of his tricks and God’s plans. Sometimes we need to let the enemy know we are on to his games and we really DON’t PLAY THAT!

So here are my confessions or declarations for this week…

  • God has not given me the spirit of fear

  • I am beautiful on the inside and outside

  • My circumstances cannot and will not destroy me

  • Jesus is enough

  • I am a hopeful person

  • It is well

Would you all like for me to share my weekly confessions here with you guys? What is something you are speaking over your life this week?




5 Tips For Spring Cleaning Your Closet

Well hello spring and hello to spring cleaning. I really like the idea of spring cleaning because spring normally means new beginnings and fresh starts. I think for most of us we do not know where to begin with the cleaning, so here I am with the plug. lol. Are we still saying that? All the same, for me, spring cleaning begins with cleaning out my closet. I think this is the toughest place to start so I hope you find this helpful.

  • Clothes that do not fit. I know people keep clothes that do not fit because it inspires them to lose weight or motivates them. If that is true for you and IF it works then I understand your need to keep those clothes around. But let’s be honest with ourselves, for most of us, those clothes will never fit. The shirt you had when you had the 15-year-old body will not fit on your 25-year-old body and that is okay. Your body is so different now. Embrace that!
  • Clothes that are damaged. Listen, I know you’ve been planning to patch those pants and fix that zipper, but that was 2 summers ago. Accept that it isn’t happening, you won’t fix it. Either give it away to someone who can fix and will wear it or if it is really damaged throw it away. You will never fix the pants with the huge hole at the crotch.
  • Clothes that you haven’t worn in a year. If you haven’t worn it in a year or so, you aren’t going to wear it. Get rid of it.
  • Clothes that don’t fit your style or make you feel good anymore. As we get older, we change and so does our style. There are certain clothes that don’t fit your style anymore and no longer makes you feel good. You should be wearing things that make you feel good and confident. Get rid of things that don’t.
  • Gifted clothes you don’t like. I used to be one of those people who kept clothing items that were gifted to me that I didn’t like out of obligations. But I now just pass it on to other people I know will appreciate it and wear it or simply donate it.

Where is your starting point when you begin spring cleaning?

True Life: I am afraid

IMG_0836.jpgI woke up around 4:00AM filled with fear and so many “what ifs,” immediately I started speaking the word of God over myself.

13 Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:13-14

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

So, I said these verses to myself over and over again but my heart wasn’t changing. I still felt afraid and consumed with worry.

A little background. A few days ago, I took a leap of faith and literally started a new life. So right now, I am unemployed and no longer live with my parents. I didn’t expect this transition to be easy by any means but I also didn’t anticipate any sleepless nights. I was so full of faith that God was or IS going to come through and soon. So this is my first night since the decision that I have actually been paralyzed by fear. 

As I said, I was speaking the word of God over myself but again, my heart wasn’t changing and I still felt fearful and doubtful. Hear me, my feelings don’t make the word of God a lie, that isn’t what I am trying to communicate. The word of God is true and it accomplishes what it has been sent to do, we may or may not see it. This morning, I couldn’t see it or feel it.

Something different than what I am used to happened. Usually when I feel afraid, I would feel guilty about it because it made feel like I didn’t trust God to come through like He’s said He would. But today, I felt no guilt.

I’ve been reading the gospel of Matthew for the Lenten season and what stood out to me concerning this present issue is how we serve a God that was fully human in the person of Jesus who felt fear. It doesn’t specifically use the word fear to describe Jesus, but we can infer that when He was praying at the Garden of Gethsemane, He felt fear because He literally begged God to take away the cup: the pain, anguish and shame he was about to experience. He was afraid. If He wasn’t He wouldn’t have pleaded with His father to deliver Him. He didn’t go into to his death with full vim, he cried and prayed.

I think sometimes we forget that we have a God that sympathizes or suffers with us, at least I do. And so we feel as though we have to face any challenge without doubt, fear and tears. But these things are normal, but we do not allow it to consume us, because something extraordinary happens on the third day. We do not have to pretend we know it all or have it all figured out. Yes we need to literally suffocate fear and not give it life, but we also need to be honest. In our honesty, God meets us and calms our fears. When we pretend, we do not give God room to change and fix our heart.

15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin.” Hebrews 4:15

Jesus, has gone through it!! Even worse than we could ever imagine or go through ourselves. So we can be rest assured that we do not have to hide anything from Him. I don’t know about you, but this gives me freedom to feel all the feels.

a prayer (you can say it out loud)

Thank You God for the gift of Your word. I confess that I am fearful at times, but I also confess that You are Almighty. Thank You for the freedom You’ve given me to come to You boldly with everything I feel and I am even more thankful that You completely understand. Amen

Do you struggle with fear too?