Day 5: God as . . .

In the bible, God describes Himself as the I AM, people have interpreted it to mean that God can be whatever we need for Him to be in every season for our lives. What a freaking concept. What a relief? I mean its one hell of good news.

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So for me, God IS father

Discovering God as Father was a complete game changer for me.

 

For so long, I have struggled with (thinking) people not loving me or even liking me. I always thought I wasn’t lovable or likable. I thought at any moment, people were going to walk out of my life and abandon me. This prevented me from getting to know people, because if they left, I wouldn’t feel as bad. I expected people to leave. I couldn’t see why someone will want to be there for me and how they could be there for me. But I learned, truly learned and came to believe I was a child of God and it literally rocked my world.

What God as father means for me is..

Security. I feel secured knowing that God will not leave me. When He was all I had, He WAS all I had. He stuck around in my toughest of days and is still sticking around for the days when I struggle. My security comes from God being sovereign. That the sovereign God has called me to “son ship!” I know He will not abandon me and I can completely trust Him.

 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,

“Never will I leave you;
    never will I forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5

Discovering God as my father means that I have someone who wants to listen to all of my mistakes and correct me kindly. Growing up, I hated being corrected. People will say I was stubborn but it really hurt me when I would be corrected. But when God showed Himself as father, He thought me that I can confess and be as whiny as I wanted and cry and complain about the same things over and over again and He will still listen. But He will also discipline, but because He is a good father, I AM CONVINCED He lets us experience the least amount of pains we possibly can from a situation. His correction seem so painful sometimes, but really think about it, that is THE easiest pain and less pain you can deal with. I think that is what God models for our earthly fathers and you can see that. Father’s usually prevent their children from doing certain things. In the moment, the pain from missing out on that party seem so devastating, but wow, what if you were saved from was messing with the wrong crowd and ending up in jail. Missing out doesn’t seem so bad compared to jail right? Only a wise Father can be so kind and loving to prevent this kind of pain from His children.

God as father means close relationship. Don’t get me wrong, God IS  ALMIGHTY. He IS King and we owe Him due reverence. He IS Glory. Nothing truly compares right? But He has allowed us to call Him Father, meaning, He WANTS to have close and deep relationship with us. He wants a closeness with us. I mean how many kings of this world will allow commoners to come close to them? I can’t think of any. Even pastors these days have security and sometimes you have to make an appointment to see them.

God as father means that I am loved. What? me? hot ass mess me? Like He sees every sin in my heart and mind and He loves me? I walk away from Him ALL the time and He is still like nope, you are mine, I am coming after you.

I have called you by name; you are MINE! Isaiah 43:1

I speak this verse over myself ALL the time. I read it just last year and I was SHOOK! like me? but it is the truth!!

What has God been for you or who is God for you? and why? I’ll love to hear from you

 

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Taking Stock: February 2018

Making : nothing at the moment.

Cooking : I haven’t cooked in a while

Drinking : Orange fanta

Reading:  Find out on my instagram @yaa_tekyiwaa

Wanting: MONEY! I need money.

Looking: for a new job.

Deciding: all the decisions have been made.

Wishing: on a moon

Enjoying: this cola gummy bears! they are gold!! I kid you not

Waiting: for a miracle!

Liking: No boys, men, uncles, brothers, etc…solidly single

Wondering: when is my man who is going to delight in me come? I’m praying about it. Maybe I should write a post about what I looking for in a man so you all can help a sister out? (same as January and very contradicting to what I wrote above.)

Loving: Jesus the LIVING Christ

Listening: Do it by Elevation Worship and Hero’s by Amanda Cook

Considering: eh nothing really

Buying: nothing at the moment. Broke us af

Watching: Living Single

Hoping: in Christ ALONE

Cringing: at nothing really

Needing: money! haha

Questioning: certain things and people but ah well….jk

Smelling: cleaning products

Wearing: Day 3 clothes. But I’ve showered oh

Noticing: nothing

Thinking: I can’t wait till Friday

Feeling: Free. Free from emotions (well not all) . Loved. Loved by my sweet Jesus

Celebrating: nothing really

Pretending: none here

Embracing: this hope!

Do your own Taking Stock post and pinback? I’d like to see what you have been up to.

2018 Word of the Year: HOPE

It amuses me that I’m about to write about hope and I’m not feeling very hopeful at this moment.

About 3 hours prior to crossing over to the new year I had this burst of anxiety and I haven’t been able to shake it. I’m anxious about 2018  bringing more pain with it. This is so far from what hopeful person should be thinking, so I guess that’s a good word for me after all, huh?

Why I chose this word

In 2017, I felt a hopelessness I’ve never felt before and it was dark and scary. You know the light at the end of the tunnel people are so fond of talking about, I couldn’t see it so I am pretty certain that there was a huge rock blocking it and I was literally suffocating with just feelings of things never getting better for me. I really wish I could share all that happened but I’m really not ready. But it really left me feeling like there is absolutely nothing to live for. I think hopelessness is how the enemy convince us that nothing good is going to come out of our lives and that we are probably better off dead.

I picked hope just to remind myself to trust in the infinite wisdom of God and the infinite goodness of God.

What does hope mean to me

  • It means knowing who the source of my hope is- so I plan to really engage with scripture and in prayer. My thought process is this, if God is who He says and I believe that He is who He says he is, then I can put all of hope in Him and trust that, he will not disappoint. Hope is described as a confident assurance.
  • It means living with the expectation of seeing the goodness of God in my life
  • It means living bold and fearless knowing that God’s got my back.
  • It means believing that I’m untouchable and the Good Shepherd watches over me.
  • It means peace when I feel like my world is breaking.
  • Hope means trusting a God who is Sovereign. Jesus who empathizes with us and Holy Spirit who lives in us.
  • It means Selah- pausing and praising
  • It means understanding that the Kingdom of God is already here in part, and also anticipating with excitement of the Kingdom being FULLY realized when Jesus steps in.
  • It means working hard, believing that it will pay off.
  • It means joy and rest

I’ll try and do updates on the word through out the year.

Do you have a word of the year? or did you make an resolution?