Life Lately + Word of the Year

Hi friends,

Lets play catch up. Lets start with my word of the year. How is it going? Am I still living it? Did I forsake it? word of the year

I chose the word HOPE as my word of the year for 2018! I chose it because last year or the last few years, I was living in this darkness that was hopelessness and as I was praying about 2018, I felt that God wanted to deliver me from that. You can read more about it HERE.

I am living out this word by making BOLD decisions about my life. Being uncomfortable and really seeking joy. I am living out a hopeful life by choosing to depend on God for things that seem unattainable. I spend hours in prayer declaring over every dry bone and dead thing in my life to come alive. I am living out a hopeful life by not taking short cuts and settling for temporary pleasures. I am living a hopeful life by waiting on God.

Don’t get me wrong, it has been difficult because being hopeful doesn’t naturally come to me. But I am so glad my hope isn’t in my feelings or my positive thoughts but it is in Christ alone. He alone gives me hope. Nothing else. So yes there are days where I’ve cried myself to sleep, where I have slipped into the place of hopelessness and despair but God always shows up to comfort me and give me hope.

Life Lately

Life has been STRESSFUL, need I say I more? I feel the weight of stress on every level, but God dey! you know!

I’ve also been having a lot of OKAY days. Like things are just okay. I am developing a community and it is exciting.

I am also spending time with myself. I found this cafe I am in love with. cafe i write what i like blogVietnamese coffee

Life lately has been figuring out more of who I am and most importantly what I like and want. I grew up surrounded by family and so I never truly made decisions for myself by myself. Now that I am no longer living at home. What I eat, when I cook, what I do with my time is solely on me. I don’t have to consider anyone. It’s freeing but a tad uncomfortable.

I am also trying this thing I learned from the girls at CLEARTRANSPARANCY (click the link, you won’t regret it) blog. It’s called confessions. Basically declaring the truth of what God says about us out loud and also into our heart. It is such a good idea! I think sometimes the enemy needs to hear the truth about us too. he needs to know that WE KNOW what God has said about us. Like we aren’t some clueless mindless minions walking around in this world unaware of his tricks and God’s plans. Sometimes we need to let the enemy know we are on to his games and we really DON’t PLAY THAT!

So here are my confessions or declarations for this week…

  • God has not given me the spirit of fear

  • I am beautiful on the inside and outside

  • My circumstances cannot and will not destroy me

  • Jesus is enough

  • I am a hopeful person

  • It is well

Would you all like for me to share my weekly confessions here with you guys? What is something you are speaking over your life this week?

 

 

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Day 6: share something that stood out from your day

A toast to Day 6!!

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I had a sort of busy day filled with car issues, family and friends. But I’m going to share my “car-time” talk with you. I be talking to myself sometimes. But listen, if you’ve ever had an issue sorting out the difference between guilt and conviction, here goes . . .

While I was driving around looking for tires for my car, I was thinking about all the other “problems” I had going on. And just how much I needed this tire issue to sort itself out before I lost my mind.

So I’ve been waiting and praying for particular thing and I know the method in which  people have received that thing. I am not sharing exactly what I am talking about because I do not want to come off judgmental.

But I was thinking of getting myself into this thing which I didn’t really feel good about. So as I was thinking about this temptation or sin, I could clearly hear God asking “are you doing this because you do not trust me to fulfill my promises to you, or because you think I need your help?” And I was like wow God, it ain’t even like that fam, I’m just really wanting this thing and you’re kind of taking a long time. But in that moment, I was convicted. I decided I wasn’t going to fall for that temptation.

For me, conviction is when God corrects you about something. But that correction offers grace when we oblige. Conviction brings peace of mind and freedom.

As soon I was convicted. I felt the enemy saying super clearly, “what? you are going to avoid this small temptation, what about all your thousand and one sins? Do you think this little change make a difference to God, he is not even pleased with you because you haven’t fully surrendered and you still sin, this little change doesn’t matter.” The enemy was basically guilting me to run towards this temptation.

Guilt carries with it shame and requires you to hide in anxiousness. 

After this little short experience in my car, I just thought to myself, this is what it means to be convicted and this is what it means to feel guilt. I know they are just words but I just want us to try separate the voice of the enemy and of God. Conviction is from God and guilt is from the enemy. People who belong to God are not meant to feel guilty. There is no shame with God and absolutely no blame. He corrects you to free you. God gives us freedom.

What is something you’ve been convicted about in your walk with Christ?

 

Day 5: God as . . .

In the bible, God describes Himself as the I AM, people have interpreted it to mean that God can be whatever we need for Him to be in every season for our lives. What a freaking concept. What a relief? I mean its one hell of good news.

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So for me, God IS father

Discovering God as Father was a complete game changer for me.

 

For so long, I have struggled with (thinking) people not loving me or even liking me. I always thought I wasn’t lovable or likable. I thought at any moment, people were going to walk out of my life and abandon me. This prevented me from getting to know people, because if they left, I wouldn’t feel as bad. I expected people to leave. I couldn’t see why someone will want to be there for me and how they could be there for me. But I learned, truly learned and came to believe I was a child of God and it literally rocked my world.

What God as father means for me is..

Security. I feel secured knowing that God will not leave me. When He was all I had, He WAS all I had. He stuck around in my toughest of days and is still sticking around for the days when I struggle. My security comes from God being sovereign. That the sovereign God has called me to “son ship!” I know He will not abandon me and I can completely trust Him.

 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,

“Never will I leave you;
    never will I forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5

Discovering God as my father means that I have someone who wants to listen to all of my mistakes and correct me kindly. Growing up, I hated being corrected. People will say I was stubborn but it really hurt me when I would be corrected. But when God showed Himself as father, He thought me that I can confess and be as whiny as I wanted and cry and complain about the same things over and over again and He will still listen. But He will also discipline, but because He is a good father, I AM CONVINCED He lets us experience the least amount of pains we possibly can from a situation. His correction seem so painful sometimes, but really think about it, that is THE easiest pain and less pain you can deal with. I think that is what God models for our earthly fathers and you can see that. Father’s usually prevent their children from doing certain things. In the moment, the pain from missing out on that party seem so devastating, but wow, what if you were saved from was messing with the wrong crowd and ending up in jail. Missing out doesn’t seem so bad compared to jail right? Only a wise Father can be so kind and loving to prevent this kind of pain from His children.

God as father means close relationship. Don’t get me wrong, God IS  ALMIGHTY. He IS King and we owe Him due reverence. He IS Glory. Nothing truly compares right? But He has allowed us to call Him Father, meaning, He WANTS to have close and deep relationship with us. He wants a closeness with us. I mean how many kings of this world will allow commoners to come close to them? I can’t think of any. Even pastors these days have security and sometimes you have to make an appointment to see them.

God as father means that I am loved. What? me? hot ass mess me? Like He sees every sin in my heart and mind and He loves me? I walk away from Him ALL the time and He is still like nope, you are mine, I am coming after you.

I have called you by name; you are MINE! Isaiah 43:1

I speak this verse over myself ALL the time. I read it just last year and I was SHOOK! like me? but it is the truth!!

What has God been for you or who is God for you? and why? I’ll love to hear from you