As the last month of the year approaches, I was beginning to think about what I wanted 2019 to look like and all the things I wanted to do. Then I thought to myself, “slow down.”
My word of the year for 2018 was HOPE, you can read all about it HERE. I started this year full of hope because it was either that or continue to drown. I started by looking for opportunities to be hopeful and bold and learning to say “it is well.” but through out the months, I don’t feel like I cultivated it the way I wanted to. I won’t say I am living a life of hopelessness, because that was a dark, cold-grave God brought me out of. But I will say, I have been living a life without expectancy of God’s goodness because I haven’t really trusted. Kind of just going through the motions.
So I as I was thinking about the year ending, I realized advent season is a few days away, and that is the perfect opportunity to reconnect with my word and with the source of my hope and life. Advent season is a time where Christians remember and celebrate the birth of Jesus and His second coming that has been promised us. It is the 4 weeks leading up to Christmas. so here is how I will be observing advent this year.
I really just want to steward this advent season well and slow down. I think Jesus has become too familiar to me and the reason for him has become almost meaningless for me. It sucks to write this but it is the honest truth. So I just want to use this time to draw near to The One, to The Light of our world, of my world. To really feel and acknowledge what His coming brings, not only to my life but all of us- joy, peace, hope and love.
It is kind of late and I just really felt this on my heart and I just wanted to share.
There is this ache in my heart knowing that Jesus has become too familiar and I do not give Him the reverence that is due to Him. There is a song that start with… “I have made you too small in my eyes…” it is exactly how I am feeling.
I thought I’d share because depending on the year we had, it is sometimes easy to want December to just end so we can just get that fresh start. But I just sense that God is calling us to draw near, right now.