True Life: I come with baggage

cue in Bag Lady by Erykah Badu.

bag lady, you gon hurt your bag dragging all them bags like that. I guess nobody ever told you,all you must hold to, is you, is you,is you…one day, all them bags gon get in your way, so, PACK LIGHT

Hi friends, I am here to tell you that I am hoarder. Not recovered.

I know when you think of hoarders, you think of the people on TLC who just buy things on TV and they have no room in their house to even walk through. I am not that type of hoarder. I hoard feelings and hopes and disappointments and failures and dreams and then I carry it everywhere. Then there is no room. No room for new experiences, new dreams, new desires, new opportunities, etc… you catch my drift.

The problem with carrying too many things is that, one day, they eventually swallow you, WHOLE!

I feel like I am experiencing this right now. I feel overwhelmed with things of the past that I have have not completely let go and it such a heavy load to carry. But I don’t even know where to start unloading them.

I often talk about surrender. But my Gah, how do you let go of dreams and promises that you hold so close and dear to your heart?

I don’t have the answers friends.

But if you carry baggage, I am here with you, I see you. You can carry mine, I won’t carry yours. I’m obviously just kidding. What I really want to say is that we need to start unloading some of these feelings we’ve been carrying with us for so long and just work on becoming lighter, and leave room for new things.

listen, the Lord is doing something new, He has already began….

On a more serious note. I know from experience, even now, the negative effects of carrying baggage. It brings deep sadness, heaviness, and most times, steal your joy. And I know you have good reason for keeping those baggage close. I know you want to be reminded of those disappointments and failures so you don’t try that thing again. Friend, I am all about self preservation too. I know you are holding unto those old hopes and dreams because you are afraid to dream again. I completely understand that too, like why dream new things when the old ones haven’t come to fruition? I get it

**deep sigh**

so for the ones who carry baggage. I see you, I am you! but you know what friend, lets try releasing the old feels. there are so many new things to feel. Feeling light might be uncomfortable for people like us, but it is the only way to be. A new smile is coming. I promise you. Pick one thing to let go today.

For me, I am releasing past failures. And I got work to do, because it is heavy one filled with so many small little packages.

so my fellow baggage carriers, what are you releasing today? do share with me

4 thoughts on “True Life: I come with baggage

  1. One of the biggest losses for me was not getting into medical school after three tries. I have told myself that God gives and takes away, but damn, it hurts. Like, yeah I know I have to dream new dreams, but I like my old dreams just fine. And you know in Christian culture we are told that God gives us the desires of our hearts. But why would he give them, if he only means to take them away? It’s an emotional one for me.


    1. Awww sis!! I too have been trying become a lawyer. I’ve taken the exam 3 times as well and failed. So I share in your suffering. I can’t answer your question. But for me, I don’t know if I am supposed to give up this particular desire to be a lawyer and so I’m going to keep attacking it till my back is against the wall. I do get hopeless sometimes and the process is tedious, costly and just heart breaking. So I can’t even imagine all that it takes to get into medical school. I don’t know your finances and I don’t know how this process to get into medical school has affected you mentally and emotionally but if you are able, maybe try one more time!!!


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