Lets play catch up. Lets start with my word of the year. How is it going? Am I still living it? Did I forsake it?
I chose the word HOPE as my word of the year for 2018! I chose it because last year or the last few years, I was living in this darkness that was hopelessness and as I was praying about 2018, I felt that God wanted to deliver me from that. You can read more about it HERE.
I am living out this word by making BOLD decisions about my life. Being uncomfortable and really seeking joy. I am living out a hopeful life by choosing to depend on God for things that seem unattainable. I spend hours in prayer declaring over every dry bone and dead thing in my life to come alive. I am living out a hopeful life by not taking short cuts and settling for temporary pleasures. I am living a hopeful life by waiting on God.
Don’t get me wrong, it has been difficult because being hopeful doesn’t naturally come to me. But I am so glad my hope isn’t in my feelings or my positive thoughts but it is in Christ alone. He alone gives me hope. Nothing else. So yes there are days where I’ve cried myself to sleep, where I have slipped into the place of hopelessness and despair but God always shows up to comfort me and give me hope.
Life has been STRESSFUL, need I say I more? I feel the weight of stress on every level, but God dey! you know!
I’ve also been having a lot of OKAY days. Like things are just okay. I am developing a community and it is exciting.
I am also spending time with myself. I found this cafe I am in love with.
Life lately has been figuring out more of who I am and most importantly what I like and want. I grew up surrounded by family and so I never truly made decisions for myself by myself. Now that I am no longer living at home. What I eat, when I cook, what I do with my time is solely on me. I don’t have to consider anyone. It’s freeing but a tad uncomfortable.
I am also trying this thing I learned from the girls at CLEARTRANSPARANCY (click the link, you won’t regret it) blog. It’s called confessions. Basically declaring the truth of what God says about us out loud and also into our heart. It is such a good idea! I think sometimes the enemy needs to hear the truth about us too. he needs to know that WE KNOW what God has said about us. Like we aren’t some clueless mindless minions walking around in this world unaware of his tricks and God’s plans. Sometimes we need to let the enemy know we are on to his games and we really DON’t PLAY THAT!
So here are my confessions or declarations for this week…
God has not given me the spirit of fear
I am beautiful on the inside and outside
My circumstances cannot and will not destroy me
Jesus is enough
I am a hopeful person
It is well
Would you all like for me to share my weekly confessions here with you guys? What is something you are speaking over your life this week?