20:Blogtober: the greater the storm, the louder MY song

This morning on my way to my minimum wage job, I received an email from a really decent job I applied to, telling me that, the position has been filled.

I applied for this job around the middle of September. At my first my interview, the lady told me she will holding at least 3 rounds of interviews to weed people out. I made it to the third round by meeting and interviewing with 5 people including executives and after waiting around for 2 weeks, I get this email, this extremely disappointing email. I really really wanted this job.

Needless to say, I was very sad and not even in the mood to go to my minimum wage job. I wanted to just crawl back in bed and cry, just a little bit or a lot-a-bit but I needed to go make that money.

On my drive, I was just thinking to myself, I need to get over this sadness before I arrive at work and give poor customer service. I began listening to music, and recalling what I’ve learned these past few years, especially this year about disappointment and getting over situations.

I randomly began thinking about  Margaret Feinberg, the author of FIGHT BACK WITH JOY, which you can check out the book review I did HERE. Margaret battled with cancer and won, thank God. In one of her interviews I watched recently, she told of a moment during the battle with cancer, where her and her husband were on their way to the doctor and they were feel a great deal of pain and in that moment all they could do was praise God. She shared this bible scripture that she said helped her fight back with joy.

This morning in all my sadness, I remembered this scripture:

Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen, and no cattle in the stalls, YET, I will rejoice in the Lord. I will be joyful in God my savior. – Hanakkuk 3:17-18

I’m reminded that, although it is painful to not have what you want, having God is enough. That in the midst of pain, there is still joy in knowing God. For this day or hour, I am fighting back with joy and allowing the “joy of the Lord to be my strength.”

* that last sentence in the last paragraph made feel like a cliche Christian girl. We casually insert scripture in regular conversations. hahaha, but I’m all for it!*

But amidst all the rejection, I know things will be alright, and I know if things don’t pan out the way I want, God will give me the strength to deal with it.

till tomorrow,
much love

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