Hope you’re all doing well and reaching for your goals.
I was reading a post by one of the bloggers I follow and something she wrote that caught my attention was about how she never finishes what she starts or never start at all. I was literally pointing at my computer screen saying “sis, you are talking about me.”
For many years, I’ve found myself not finishing things. I always just want to start over, wait, or I simply convince myself the thing I want to do isn’t worth the hassle and so I abandon it. It is so terrible that, I cannot even finish 7 day challenges, let alone attempt to do a 30 days challenge, and I’m bothered by this lack of motivation or my unwillingness to commit to things I want to do.
Do not get me wrong, I can commit to do things for people just fine because being labeled responsible and reliable motivates me. Helping others motivates me. But I’m not sure why doing what I want to do doesn’t motivate me.
I have these little little goals I’d like to work on which will make me happy but I abandon them.
Thinking of it, I’m not sure if its lack of motivation or fear.
I maybe afraid to fail myself, but I already am kind of doing that by not going after what I want. Laziness is definitely part of it. I have time and energy for everyone but I become this lazy individual when it’s time to do something for myself.
Nowadays, I hesitate to openly say I’m going to do something because I know even before I say it that I’m not going to complete it. If you’ve been reading my posts, you will notice that many times I mention creating a blogging schedule, working out, monthly goals, etc… But, shame on me! I never do them.
I don’t know why this is, but I need to become more discipline when it comes to my own life.